I reminisce
On the last Christmas
I spent with my mom and my dad
I'm still trippin'
Wishin' that I could go back
To know what I'm missin'
It's a mystery, oh, how'd I forget
I'm not a magician
I try fixin' shit that I can't
Memories made me sick
I hope the past is the hardest that it gets
Momma say she drinkin' to forget
I told my momma "Save your son a sip"
Tryna slow my breath and get a grip
I think life is harder than in death
They're in Heaven, I'm the one that's left (They left)
I did things that I know are wrong but
Time just keeps movin' on and
No matter which way I run
I can't go back to the way it was, now
Broke bones and I shed some blood, and
Time took a few friends I love, and
No matter which way I run
I can't go back to the way it was, now
And I can't go back to the way it was
And I can't go back to the way it was, now
(Hold this moment while you can
Tell your people that you care
Do enough while you still can)
I can't go back to the way it was, now (Can't go back to the-)
I said, I can't go back to the way it was, now, woah (No, no)
I can't go back to the way it was, now